Post Script for my Readers

Readers?

I want to add something.

I've had this blog for a few months, and have yet to tell my real life friends about it. I have linked to some of their blogs, so they may have found me out. I may or may not share this blog. Every single motherfucking day I put on a brave face. The baby doesn't see me cry (*unless the fire alarm in her room breaks and I feel very stressed out), and my friends don't see me cry. I don't cry on people's shoulders. Not like I have that many people to cry on here, now that I've moved. I don't want them to know how sad and pathetic I am. I am trying to move on. I love my friends, and they have kept me going during this. Only one or two of them know how low I have gotten. I don't want to burden the rest. One of my biggest supporters is fighting stage 2 breast cancer. While working full time, and living alone in a new city. And I cry about R? Absurd. I'm not sure I can share this part of myself with my friends who know me in real life. I don't want them to know and I don't want to burden them. We'll see. Maybe my vanity and desire to self-expose will win out. Who knows? Maybe when I have some sort of triumphant return, I will someday share these sad entries.

Anyhow, I wanted to say thank you to my 5 subscribers, and commenters. Shan, Carmen, and others, I really appreciate your comments. Thanks for stopping by. I don't have much happiness in my life these days, and the small kindness of reading a stranger's words means something to me. I know you two and others are moms, and our time is especially precious.

Thank you.