38 has been a wonderful age so far. I feel blessed, beyond measure. My friends, family, Gumball- are all wonderful. Perfect. I don't need anything else.
But... I don't want to jinx myself, or rush anything, or do any of the other foolish activities that I tend to partake in, but it's true. I have feelings for someone. He doesn't need me to protect him, take care of him, or, in fact, do anything for him. Which makes me want to do things for him. I want to cuddle the heck out of him! He's thoughtful, sweet, and fair, and his intelligence, experience, self-control, and toughness keep me on my toes. Sigh. I am trying hard to not mess this up, or to lose myself in feelings. We've been seeing each other usually twice a week, for over a month now, and OMG. Feelings! I am full of them!
(Must remember to be authentically myself and to take this slowly. Also- MUST remember that actions and words must be weighed carefully.)
